Thursday Three Hundred- Jealous Desire

 

Rose Letter

This week’s blog theme is Caroline Bingley’s jealous of Elizabeth Bennet. Be sure to check out the earlier posts this week! Girl Crush as served as the song inspiration for this story. Additionally, I have finally reached my goal of limiting the story to only three hundred words!

Jealous Desire

 I watch her smile and your eyes fixate on her ruby lips. When she walks by, you lean in to catch her lavender fragrance. Elizabeth pushes a long curl away from her face as she searches through the music books. I could play all those tunes with my eyes closed and she skips the difficult parts. Still, you applaud her loudly. Your eyes caress her as she sings.

Does she know the taste of your lips? Has she felt the touch of your hand? Have you cupped her cheek and whispered words of love in her ear?

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Angry at your obvious admiration for her, I point out all her flaws. Her teeth are not as dazzling white as mine. Her figure is flawed. Countless times I have seen her spurn your attention and offer for assistance. She cares only for herself—or she did. Now, she meets your gaze and a light blush crosses her cheeks. Now, she checks her speech in your company. When your eyes are focused elsewhere, hers linger on your face. A yearning sigh escaped her lips when her aunt announced their need to leave.

Rather than make you see how wrong Elizabeth is, I have enraged you. When you declared her one of the handsomest ladies of your acquaintance, it cut like a knife to my heart. I can’t sleep because of her. Dark circles have formed under my eyes as I question when you will make your offer.

I can never be her. Oh, I wish I could. If I drowned in her perfume, would you notice me then? If I wore my hair just like hers, would it be me you desire? If only her bewitching magic transfer to me for a minute. I hate Elizabeth Bennet with a jealous desire.

 

Music Monday- Girl Crush

 

Beautiful black and white rose with note on the petals

This song has been out for a few years, and I have to confess that the soulful, blues-y sound of it has always held my attention. When I was making plans for this week’s theme on the blog, it popped in my head as the perfect way to encapsulate Caroline Bingley’s envy for Elizabeth Bennet. Even if you’ve never felt this way about a man, we have probably all envied another woman (or man, if I have any male readers–speak up if you are because I don’t know of you!) at some point in our lives.

Lest the title confuse you, it’s been described as “about a girl obsessing over another girl because that girl stole her lover … On the other hand, it could also be about a girl obsessing over the girl who is with the man that she wants but has never had.”

I’ve got a girl crush
Hate to admit it but,
I got a hard rush
It’s not slowing down
I got it real bad
I want everything she has
That smile and that midnight laugh
She’s giving you now

I want to taste her lips
Yeah, cuz they taste like you
I want to drown myself
In a bottle of her perfume

I want her long blond hair
I want her magic touch
Yeah, cuz maybe then
You’d want me just as much

I’ve got a girl crush
I’ve got a girl crush
I don’t get no sleep
I don’t get no peace

Thinking about her
Under your bed sheets
The way that she’s whispering
The way that she’s pulling you in
Lord knows I’ve tried,
I can’t get her off my mind

I want to taste her lips
Yeah, cuz they taste like you
I want to drown myself
In a bottle of her perfume
I want her long blond hair
I want her magic touch
Yeah, cuz maybe then
You’d want me just as much

I’ve got a girl crush
I’ve got a girl crush
Hate to admit it but
I got a hard rush,
It’s not slowing down

Written by: Lori McKenna, Liz Rose, and Hillary Lindsey. Performed by Little Big Town.