Music Monday– Jireh

The message of this song is one of the most profound lyrics that I’ve ever heard and dwelt on. In short, it answers 99% of the problems in my head. First, that God is enough. Wherever He has placed me and whatever I’m going through, if I have God with me (and I always do because He doesn’t leave), makes it more than enough. I can be content no matter what is going on. But even more important to me is this line: I’ll never be more loved than I am right now.

For most of my life, I have struggled with perfectionism. I have also had an all or nothing mindset. If I can’t be perfect, then I’m useless. I’ve entertained unrealistic expectations and thought distortions A LOT. I used to believe that everyone else could be perfect, it was just me that was the problem. Though therapy, I learned that there’s a better way to think. However, I still struggled with being imperfect. It never felt right on the inside, even when I knew logically it was true that we all have faults. Additionally, I was raised to be a people pleaser and didn’t see unconditional love exhibited as a child. I had to earn it.

In recent years, God has stirred a revival in my heart. He’s brought me back to a truth that I realized and depended upon as a child and a new Christian. I seemed to have forgotten this fact along the way. My sin is covered by the blood of Jesus. He does not penalize me for being human and continuing to remain imperfect on this Earth. If I never stumble again, I will not be more loved than I am right now. I am already fully loved.

What freedom that brings me!

This is the covenant that I will make with them after those days, saith the Lord, I will put my laws into their hearts, and in their minds will I write them;

And their sins and iniquities will I remember no more.

Hebrews 10:16-17